This Girl's Life
There were lines on the mirror, lines on her face
She pretended not to notice, she was caught up
in the race
Elanor Autumn!
I wish I knew how to reply properly haha!
I’m alright… I’m pretty happy with myself for the first time in living memory. Not that I’m healthy, or thin, but I kind of came round to the idea of being curvy etc and was starting to think it could be pretty sexy on me.
Now, however, I feel like a massive lump and miss having a 26” waist. Refuse to be triggered though. Absolutely refuse. Am going up to my pub to do my washing, play poker and have a white wine spritzer. And shake my curves all over the place! Because there is one voice in my head telling me I’m fat. Fat fat. Not a little bit fat, but properly, wobbly disgusting fat. The other voice, however, is telling me that while I might be fat (knowing secretly in it’s heart of hearts that I’m not fatfatfatfatfat), that I am SEXY and look HEALTHY and I am FINE just the way I am.
Just been a while since I’ve done a shoot. And two months ago I was under nine stone. I am definitely not under nine stone now. I am naturally this size, I just don’t like it much of the time! But I have broad shoulders, a big ol’ rib cage, and stealthy hips. I think stealthy is the wrong word, but you know what I mean.
I really, really will not be triggered.
I hope xxx
